i have this insane urge to swim in water that is clear blue and beautiful.

i've wanted to ever since i can remember and i feel like i need to buy a plane ticket and go somewhere like that really soon because i know it'll make me really happy.

i wouldn't mind that for my 21st birthday actually.

flying away on a plane and escaping everyone and everything, even for a few days to go somewhere like this, wasting my money on what would feel like freedom.

i wouldn't mind hiding here for a while.

i'm not sure what it was but today i woke up feeling motivated. maybe it's because one of my best friends emailed me from Sweden? or maybe it's because i'm turning 21 (ARGH) this coming weekend? or it could be both? but i feel like i've lost myself a little lately. i've been busy going from boring A to boring B and back again and i've been ignoring that little voice in my head that reminds me of all my hopes and dreams that i have for myself and i need to listen to it before i become unhappy.



so i'm looking at inspiring photos and listening to Xavier Rudd <3 because he always reminds of the things i need to do in order to get to where i want to be.