my life currently consists of:

- working
- wasting time watching television
- getting my hopes up about spending time with someone
- finding out i won't be able to see them
- working
- listening to cloud control
- writing
- working
- getting my hopes up about spending time with someone
- finding out i won't be able to see them
- sleeping
- buying gwen stefani related things on ebay
- eating
- getting my hopes up about seeing someone
- being told i won't be able to see them
- working
- waiting, always waiting

i have never felt so lonely as i have these past few weeks