i wouldn't mind hiding here for a while.

i'm not sure what it was but today i woke up feeling motivated. maybe it's because one of my best friends emailed me from Sweden? or maybe it's because i'm turning 21 (ARGH) this coming weekend? or it could be both? but i feel like i've lost myself a little lately. i've been busy going from boring A to boring B and back again and i've been ignoring that little voice in my head that reminds me of all my hopes and dreams that i have for myself and i need to listen to it before i become unhappy.



so i'm looking at inspiring photos and listening to Xavier Rudd <3 because he always reminds of the things i need to do in order to get to where i want to be.
 

new blog

i'm quite aware that the only person who shall take any notice of this is Lucy but anyway:

http://swallowedthesea.blogspot.com/

lucy brand

i don't think you realise how much i adore you and how happy it makes me feel just to know i have someone so lovely like you in my life.
i know this year is bad for you and i hate that but please don't forget you have me <3

it's funny how quick time goes but how slow it actually feels when you miss someone

no matter how many years go by i will always think of you and miss you dearly.
happy birthday, my friend.
i hope that wherever you are, you are smiling.
love you always xo

today I am spending the day by watching all my No Doubt and Gwen Stefani DVD's to pass the time while I wait for Jye to get home.
We are going to Melbourne to see the lovely City and Colour <3
I'm so excited!

I am also becoming really impatient as I wait for all my Gwen Stefani related eBay purchases to come from around the world to my doorstep.
I was hoping they'd be here before I went to Melbourne so I could use them but oh well, another time.

I am getting a bit cranky as I watch a DVD from a No Doubt concert in 1997 because I've never been old enough to go to one of their concerts :( So before I die I must see them as many times as I can afford to to make up for all those lost oppurtunities when I was younger.
And if I die before I see them, I'll haunt you all...
Not really, I'll just crash all their concerts.

Anyway, enough of my bored ramblings I have to go and repack because as usual I've packed too much and it's time to decide which Gwen shirt I'll be taking instead of three.
Hope your day is wonderful :)

Whilst burning sandalwood incense and listening to 'Kettering' by the Antlers I cleaned my room at last. I've been so lazy with it and I really regret not doing it sooner because I found it so therapeutic. I feel much more balanced and intune with myself when my bedroom is clean. I am far more content and happy when I am in it now already.

So far today on my day off I have done the following things:
- learnt how to poach eggs and ate them for breakfast
- practised three point turns
- ate a roast lunch with my family (vegies, vege schnitzel, apple sauce and vegetarian gravy) so yummy
- read my new book about natural home remedies, etc. so interesting.
- had a visit from my friend, Lauren
- cleaned my room
- found all my winter jackets, cardigans and jumpers because it's starting to get chilly

and now here I am, writing this.

I hope your day was lovely.

I have a list of things I want to achieve and last week I happily ticked off two of them:
- sent my withdrawal application to uni
- booked in my driving test

and now I just have to get the withdrawal approved and pass my
driving test, gah. so nervous about both.

my life currently consists of:

- working
- wasting time watching television
- getting my hopes up about spending time with someone
- finding out i won't be able to see them
- working
- listening to cloud control
- writing
- working
- getting my hopes up about spending time with someone
- finding out i won't be able to see them
- sleeping
- buying gwen stefani related things on ebay
- eating
- getting my hopes up about seeing someone
- being told i won't be able to see them
- working
- waiting, always waiting

i have never felt so lonely as i have these past few weeks

happy birthday my dear lucy <3
i hope i can take away this hungover and the cranky mood of yours while we journey to Shepparton to see the amazing Angus and Julia Stone :)